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  • Unexpected Result From Sleepless Night

    Feel surprisingly good for less than 4 hours of sleep. Granted, it’s only been 6 hours up. I can tell it shows because whenever I feel especially good and am out and about, people spontaneously interact with me and chat me up way more than otherwise.

    Like today already, while waiting for the elevators in a hospital, a nurse passing a ways down the hall went out of her way to stop, tell me about, and then lead me quite a ways to the “super secret fast elevators,” along the way having a nice talk. While waiting in various lines, people chatted me up more than once. If I’m tired or otherwise miserable, that shit just never happens; either from me being mostly unaware, not giving any non-verbal openings, or it just shows on my face so people take that as a signal to leave me alone. 😅

    Any way, I’ve recently changed a few minor lifestyle things related to health that might be having a positive effect. I’m eating more freely, regularly breaking my non-inflammatory diet, BUT taking a digestive enzyme formula tablet (that also has pre- and probiotics) with every big or bad meal. Also started taking a 24-hour non-drowsy antihistamine (generic Claritin) every morning.

    I haven’t had any narcoleptic energy crashes triggered by food or any of the random skin annoyances I sometimes get (hives, dry hands) since, so I dunno. Guess I’ll keep both those things up. Other than that, I only take a daily Fenugreek supplement (not sure if it does anything, tbh) and sometimes a multivitamin (just to fill any gaps in my nutrition) if I remember.

  • Lazy Sunday Respite

    Sunday is the day of the week I gather together all my wits scattered from the exiting week, tie off any loose ends, knock out anything absolutely critical that’s still undone–if not critical, it’s staying undone or getting deferred–and sort preparations for the coming week. But nothing really desperately needs doing this Sunday, so have been taking it a bit (okay, a lot) easy all day knowing this coming week will be especially busy. Going to:

    • In the next couple days, get a solid recording of the song I most recently wrote. Hopefully, I can just bang this out tomorrow.
    • From mid-week on, test run the health & fitness coaching business I’ve been developing for way too long, with a mock client. Of course, that’ll all be private. Want to have the business in… business before start of the year, which will be optimal time to cash in on the dependable New Years trend of health & fitness improvement resolutions.
    • By final third of the week, finish the year-end life-and-times retrospective I’ve been writing. Quite eager to get back to work on the novella writing this has been holding off.
    • In the last couple days of the week, start working on my next minor project, which I’ve already concepted and know will be an audio-visual, mixed media thing involving quite a few creative disciplines that come together into a kind of short film. Okay, doesn’t sound that minor on paper, but in theory, it should take less than a month.

    Ironically, the only productive thing I did today, for a whole eight hours or so, was revamp some productivity systems I created over a year ago in the Notion app (https://www.notion.so/personal) and have been on-and-off using. I’d like to be more consistent in using the app in the coming year, as I spent a lot of time setting it up to manage, collect, catalogue, and organize just about everything related to everything in my life. From big stuff, like managing the various projects I’m working on, down to miscellaneous minutiae of little consequence, like cataloguing media (movies, video games, books, music) of personal relevance. I think some of what I use Notion for is referred to as personal knowledge management (PKM). I’ve researched and considered switching to one of their many (many) competitors like Capacities, AppFlowy, Anytype, and Microsoft’s new Loop, but though some of those other apps may (or may not, I don’t really know for sure) have a better conceptual core, Notion just seems more full-featured and well-supported for now, having been in development for a lot longer, has a significantly broader range of adopters, and has more capability to connect to other apps. So, suppose I’ll just stick with Notion for now. It does most everything I need it to at this point.

    Any way, it’s almost 1 AM, well past my bedtime as of late.

  • Catch-Up

    Been using Twitter (… X) out of habit for what this journal was meant for, so pulling a handful of posts over the last half-week or whatever from there to here. Some of these may be overly succinct, or even edited down oddly, to fit in Twitter’s character limit, so apologies.

    24/11/23: Been meaning to say, irrespective of Thanksgiving, because everything together has felt especially heavy and relentlessly serious as of late, I’m incredibly grateful for all that which passes through my life that lightens the psychological burden, provides occasion to be more carefree/silly, and reminds there is so much good in this world, even if far too much of it has to first be siphoned or liberated from corruption.

    24/11/22: Only difference between Democrats & Republicans in power is Republicans mask-off say, “Fuck em all. We can optimize our greed,” whereas Democrats support compassion only so far as it doesn’t get in the way of the “pragmatic” ends they share with Republicans.

    24/11/22: One of the big differences between my younger adult self & somewhat older is coming to understand surprisingly how much of everything is NOT connected. Rather, everything is a mix of complex and nuanced intersections alongside wholly isolated factors. A person, for instance, is a conglomeration of many separate elements… often incompatible with each other! Just because a person is “good” in some ways, doesn’t mean they’re not “bad” in some other. If you were one of his dogs, you might think Hitler a really nice guy. Most of the world operates as though everything is connected, developing stereotypes & prejudice around conceptual interconnectedness and our innate tendency to categorize. Which leads to racism & other harmfully simplified judgements.

    24/11/22: The continued prevalence of indoctrination the whole world over, from nations to religions to families, and the intolerance of its results that invariably end up driving what is & isn’t, is damning evidence mankind has little evolved socially since becoming the dominant species.

    24/11/22: Old music is NOT better than new. New has more unique variety from more widely available technology plus the rise of global telecommunications providing decades of globally intermingled influencing that pushes artists to play off old and foreign sounds and try new things. But, I WOULD say what became most popular in the past was on avg better than what becomes most popular today. Why? Major labels changed. They’ve always dominated culture, influencing public preferences over time by controlling/bombarding media channels. They’ve always built cults of personality around celebrity. But they used to look for actual musicality in choosing talent. They started better understanding their power & began maxing profits+control, choosing artists dispensable/controllable, controlling trends with “their” background producers/writers.

  • Everything Starts Somewhere

    Saying it starts here is as good a spot as any. Today begins officially using this blog as my daily journal. These entries will be generally more casual and stream-of-consciousness rather than any deep introspection or contemplation. To the future, they will be simple reflections of where my mind generally was at the time of publishing them. Will be especially invaluable to my year-end life-and-times retrospective, which I’m writing annually to keep ever mindful of the context of my actions and inactions within the world I inhabit, whose general movements and non-movements I also want to document for posterity.

    I don’t want to spend much time going over my highest level thoughts and feelings here, at least not in this entry. The first year-end life-and-times retrospective will handle that soon enough. So… onto the nonsense minutiae of what is my daily life at the moment. 😄

    I’m transitioning my workouts to functional strength: pushing, pulling, lifting, carrying, holding, jumping. Compound movements that we use in the real world rather than isolated muscle work. Mixing up exercises broke my previous lifting plateaus. Upper body strength is still increasingly slowly but surely, but squat and deadlift have plateaued, so maybe this will be the answer to that.

    I may be addicted to caffeine. By coincidence, didn’t have any for a couple of days. And yesterday, I felt so inexplicably, uncomfortably… neutral. Not good nor bad. But had no drive. Not tired at all, but yet going through my planned tasks like an emotionless zombie. This feeling carried into today, and was starting to worry me a bit because I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from. Most of my days of late are full of passion, drive, and energy. But like a switch, all that was gone. Then, I had an iced coffee. And BAM! Alive! Right as rain immediately and since. One can generally get over caffeine addiction within a couple miserable weeks of detoxing, but I simply do not have that time now to sacrifice. So I’ll continue pounding coffees.

    I’ve got to stop scrolling social media in public while Israel is daily massacring Palestinians, destroying Gaza, and too many in the West, particularly our leaders, support this or are directly complicit. Has me tearing up and wanting to scream in frustration at the top of my lungs in the middle of the gym.

    OK… back to the grindstone.

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